IUI #2 was a success Saturday morning. Mr. MBC had nearly 27 million sperm post wash. At this point, I'm telling myself that AT LEAST one of those 27 million will reach my egg or eggs. Fingers crossed.
I have a confession....Mr. MBC has no idea about this blog. I was contemplating telling him a few weeks ago, but then I found out how he felt about keeping everything private. I've found myself wondering if this is considered lying? Mr. MBC is truly my best friend, but I feel like this blog has become my outlet. I don't cry nearly as much (at least not in front of people) and it's nice to get stuff off my chest. Does your husband know about your blog? Does he read it?
In other news, Mr. MBC and I have an appointment with Dr. L tomorrow afternoon. Dr. L is proactive and wants to discuss and modify our plan in case this IUI cycle is a bust. I'm hoping this appointment is a waste of time and money. I honestly think he will want to do a lap to make sure there is nothing hiding in my ute. I'm fine with surgery - oddly enough it doesn't even scare me. Part of me wishes we would have done this before starting IUIs. If that's his plan, I think I'll go ahead and schedule the surgery. If I have to cancel it, FANTASTIC. If not, then I don't have to worry about being out of the TTC game for another cycle.
Oh, and I've started taking Brome.lain each night. I figure WTH, it can't hurt? It's all natural and if I was eating pineapple daily I'd be getting the same stuff. But OMG - it's a freaking horse pill! How is it I'm okay with surgery, but complain about horse pills? IF really messes with your mind, eh?
Woohoo for an awesome IUI!! Hoping for awesome further success!
ReplyDeleteMy DH knows about my blog. He didn't at first. He knew I was in an on-line forum but then, when I changed over to blogging, he didn't know. I felt embarrassed. Eventually I told him about it but I don't think he reads it (I think he knows the name but hasn't looked for it as far as I know). I think he realizes that it is an important outlet for me. He knows that, without it, HE is my outlet and he doesn't know what to do with me when I start crying to him. He is my best friend but he's still going through this in such a different way than I am and really can't completely understand or help.
I didn't tell my husband about my blog at first. I really was going to tell him and then one day he brought it up to me. I'm not sure how he found it, but for a split second I felt vulnerable, like he had been reading my inner most thoughts, but then I was comforted that he knew them. He reads from time to time, and I openly talk about my blog and others. Hopefully your husband will be fine with you writing - if nothing else, use it as a journal for you both to look back on.
ReplyDeleteSounds like your IUI went well and the numbers are great!
My husband doesn't know about my blog. No one IRL does. It is my outlet, I think of it as my journal and I want to keep it private for now, although is posting your innermost thoughts on the internet considered private??
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