IUI #1 is set

I had my monitoring appointment this morning.  The nurse found 1 mature follie and 2 that may be ready by the time the IUI rolls around.  My lining is a little thin, but the nurse said it should thicken up rather quickly.  So here's the plan:

• Trigger tonight
• Mr. MBC has to be at the RE's office at 7:30 Sunday morning to provide his sample
• IUI should be around 9:00
• Start progesterone on Monday evening

I'm super excited that this cycle is working out.  I'm trying really hard not to get my hopes up, but it's really hard.  Fingers crossed that this is it!!

All over the place...

That's where my emotions are right now.  So I'm asking your forgiveness up front for the topic-jumping that's about to happen....

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I've been so busy this week.  Although school hasn't started back yet, I've been working this week to get things ready for when the students return.  It feels really good to focus my energy on something other than my trouble TTC.  I may be the only teacher out there that feels like this, but I'm glad summer is drawing to an end.

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I think I've mentioned my two real-life friends that are going to the same RE as me.  One of them has struggled for longer than Mr. MBC and I and has had 2 miscarriages along the way.  The other has gotten married in the last year and recently decided to stop BCP.  She and her husbnad officially started "trying" back in April of this year.  Because of some issues she had in the past with super long cycles, her OB/GYN sent her straight to the RE.  She's completed ONE medicated cycle - Femara and timed intercourse - and she's knocked up!  Seriously????  I am happy for her but WTF?  Why can she catch a break, but I can't?  What about our friend that's had 2 miscarriages already????

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Tonight is my last (scheduled) injection of Follistim.  The injections have been easy.  I can't feel the needle going in and the medicine burns only a little.  But OMG, my stomach looks like I'm a hard-care druggie with a huge issue.  Pair that with the bruises on my arms from having blood drawn.....quite the sight!

I have my first monitoring appointment in the morning.  I haven't really had any side effects from the injections.  I know this sounds crazy, but that worries me.  With Clomid, I was CRAZY emotional and my boobs wer super sore.  I've been a little emotional this week and I feel kind of bloated, but nothing major.  I guess I was just expecting more side effects from injectables than from the pills. 

I'm so nervous and excited to see what's going on in there.  Depending on what's cooking in there, we could be doing the IUI as early as Sunday or Monday.  EEK!

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Lastly, I've been a bad blogger since this past weekend.  I haven't commented on other ICWL blogs, nor have I returned comments from those that have commented here. While I'm not making excuses, Mr. MBC came home Sunday night from his out of town buisness.  He's been down in Naples for the better part of 3 months.  I'm just enjoying having him home.  And if it makes you feel any better, I haven't been on Facebook or played Words with Friends on my iPhone. 

If you've left a comment, I promise to stop by your blog very soon.  Thanks to everyone that has stopped by this week.

ETA - For those of you about to start Follistim, I've learned that there are really 400 iu in the 300 iu cartridge.  I got 4 - 100 iu doses out of my 300 iu cartridge.  It was a nice surprise!

And we're off!

I had my baseline appointment yesterday.  I was nervous that I would have a cyst and have to wait another cycle.  Great news - no cysts!  The ultrasound also showed lots of follies on each ovary.  I talked with the nurse again about my fear of over-stimming and she told me to come back on CD 9 for an ultrasound so we can see what's cooking. 

Today is CD 3 and I'll do my first injection of Follistim tonight.  Although I planned to do these shots myself, I'm kind of bummed that Mr. MBC will not be here.  He will be attacking his 12 hour drive tomorrow morning at 5:30 am.  I'm so glad he's coming home!!

I don't know if there is any truth to it or not, but I plan on drinking pom juice until O.  I did this during one of my Clomid cycles and the nurse referred to my lining as "nice and fluffy".  However, it was one of the worst AF I've ever had.  Fingers crossed that AF has her bags packed and will not be back for a while!

Changing topics....I've truly enjoyed being a part of ICWL this month.  I've just started blogging and I know that I would not have nearly as much traffic or followers if it wasn't for ICWL.  Thanks to Stirrups Queen for organizing this amazing group of bloggers.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

My favorite aunt is here!

Welcome Aunt Flo!  Come on in and make yourself comfortable.  For the first time in a year, there is no saracasm or anger in that welcome.  So glad to see her!

I am stoked to have this new cycle underway.  I called my RE's office this morning and have my baseline appointment tomorrow morning at 9:00.  I never thought I'd be so excited to have a date with the dildo-cam and a couple of needles.  Oh, the things we do for our (unborn) children.

Something not so stoke-worthy....I picked up all of my meds earlier today.  I walked out of the pharmacy $461 later with two Follistim 300 iu cartridges, 1 HCG trigger and 30 progesterone capsules in tow.  I knew what the total was going to be, but I didn't realize how little 300 iu is.  I mean, Mr. MBC can spit and have more liquid than the Follistim vial. 

Here's hoping that I'll find my baby carriage sooner rather than later!

Welcome ICWLers!

Welcome fellow IFers!  As you can tell, my blog is relatively new.  I created this blog as an outlet - I think Mr. MBC is tired of talking about IF and treatments. 

While this is my first month participating in ICWL with a blog of my own, I have commented on others blogs before during ICWL week.  Not to mention, I have many of your blogs in my Google Reader.

Looking forward to getting to know you all!

Why is it...

Why is it that when you're in the middle of a 2WW, you're hoping and praying that AF stays away?  Yet, she never obeys your wishes. She shows up and slaps you right in the face!

While the waiting is tough during a medicated cycle (when you have just a little bit of hope), I've decided this wait for AF is worse.  I'm waiting for her to show so I can call my RE's office and get my first IUI cycle underway.  The sooner the better.  Not only because I'm driving myself crazy, but the sooner AF shows up, the better chance we have of actually being able to proceed with the injectables and IUI.

I guess the waiting is the worst part regardless of WHY you're waiting.

Frustration

Mr. MBC has been working out of town lately.  He has a new company and has to go where the work is.  His travel is the reason we've taken that last 2 cycles off.  I was so pumped earlier today after I talked to the nurse at my RE's office about calling in my meds and preparing to begin our first Follistim/IUI cycle. 

Mr. MBC was supposed to be home this weekend for good.  Yay!  Not so fast....plans have changed.  He's still coming home this weekend, but have to go back to the job site in a couple of weeks to "tie up some loose ends".  With his type of work, "a couple of weeks" could mean as little as 2 weeks or as many as 4.  It just depends if others get there part done.

When I mention that we'll have to look at a calendar when he's home, he acts all confused - "why, what's going on?"  Ummm....trying to get knocked up with your baby!  That's what is going on.

Sigh....can't an infertile girl catch a break?

Who knew??

Who knew that the birds and the bees could be so complicated? 

Who knew that A + B doesn't always equal C?

Who knew that it was SO HARD for one sperm to meet one egg? 

Who knew that MCB would spend thousands of $$ on birth control pills over 15 years of her life only to find out that she can't really get pregnant the old fashioned way?


All of these things came as quite a shock to me.  Something else that came as a shock...there are A LOT of people that deal with infertility.  I guess it's something that you don't think about until it affects you.  I've been lucky enough to find a great support system online.  And more recently, I've learned that two real-life friends are struggling with IF as well.  While I wouldn't wish If on my worst enemy, it's nice to have someone to talk to, cry with, etc. that really "gets it".

A little about me....

Hi!  I'm MBC.  I'm 32 and married to my best friend, Mr. MBC.  Mr. MBC has a daughter from a previous marriage who is quite possibly the sweetest little girl in the world.  We have one dog, Pup MBC.  Mr. MBC and I have been trying to add to our little family for over a year now without luck.  Here's our timeline:

July 2009 - tossed BC

August 2009 to October 2009 - 7 periods, no signs of ovulation

November 2009 - visit with OBGYN to discuss issues; OB casually mentions PCOS

December 2009 - Clomid 100 mg = BFN

January 2010 - Clomid 100 mg + HCG trigger = BFN

February 2010 - Clomid 100 mg + HCG trigger = BFN

March 2010 - HSG: tubes all clear; Semen Analysis: all good; Clomid 100 mg + HCG Trigger = BFN

April 2010 - Clomid 100 mg + HCG Trigger = BFN

May 2010 - Break Cycle

June 2010 - Break Cycle; Consultation with RE - PCOS confirmed, put on Metformin

July 2010 - Waiting to start Follistim + Trigger + IUI.....fingers crossed that this is it!