Somethings that came out of mine and Mr. MBC's talk....
- I've realized that I've been oblivious to the let-down he feels as each month passes. I guess since I talk about it, blog about it, and think about it all.the.time., I forgot that he doesn't have a child on the way either.
- Also, I realized that IF is a "personal" matter to Mr. MBC. My real life friend, K, and I started our last cycle within 3 days of each other and did the same protocol. She and I would text several times a day about stuff. Mr. MBC is not a fan of texting, so I just thought that was where his frustration came from. Not from the fact that I was discussing our "personal" issues with someone else.
- Mr. MBC pointed out to me that I no longer say "When we have a kid..." but rather I've started saying "If we have a kid....". He thinks that this battle has turned me into a different person. I'm typically very optimistic and look at the best case scenario. While I feel like that's who I am still, I don't approach IF with that same attitude. I honestly feel defeated. And I don't know how to get over that feeling.
- We discussed IVF and decided that we would figure out a way to make the financial side of it work if our journey comes to that.